Every day we slaughter our finest impulses. That is why we get a heartache when we read those lines written by the hand of a master and recognise them as our own, as the tender shoots which we shifted because we lacked the faith to believe in our own powers, our own criterion of truth and beauty. Every man, when he gets quiet, when he becomes desperately honest with himself, is capable of uttering profound truths. – Henry Miller
In my working domain I was driven by the principles of my profession and one of them is to always act with integrity. Through some of the most challenging times I never let go of this and it is has remained an over-riding desire for me in the way I walk my talk. As a public health professional it was important to act with integrity and give people honest well researched information. Now as I leave my professional life behind and take a change in the way I live my life these principles still remain extremely important to me.
As I teach, paint, dance and draw I still want to be authentic in my approach to work.
As I wake up empty I look out the window, Let the light enter and dispel the darkness And I’ll shine through As surely and truly, for all to see Dancing my love of life, in pure authenticity.
Recently I read about Barbara McClintock in a book on creativity called the Soul of Creativity: Insights into the Creative Process. Linda Firestone writes about her willingness to pursue a course of research that was unconventional. She was criticised for her approach as she relied on her intuition as a way of exploring the undiscovered world of cell development. Despite the derision shown to her for her work, she won a Nobel prize.
In pursuing the unknown, Barbara found her passion, her strengths and her creative abilities. Her vision, and commitment to herself and her approach to the unknown and her honesty and authentic way of living act as a beacon. I applaud it and it helps me to consider what I do when faced with uncertainty. do I hide or do I rise to the challenge before me. I want to be able to let go of the habits that no longer serve me. I want to be able to look into the unknown and see the edge of the abyss and rather than failure being a certainty, I want to believe that I can find a path to a more fulfilled life. I am at least willing to risk everything for what I hold to be true in every cell of my my being.